Beauty is a delicate thing. It can make you feel on top of the world or perhaps empty, alone and forgotten. The critiquing and questions never end. Am I too big? Am I too small? Are my eyes too close together? Is my nose weird? Are my arms toned enough? The list goes on of thoughts that race through millions of heads, including my own.
From a young age I’ve struggled with my beauty, just like many others. I felt so insecure about myself. For one, I had the worst buck tooth in the world. To make things worse I broke my front tooth on accident when I was ten. I was teased and tormented by the comments of others. I looked at myself in the mirror and hated who I saw. I wished so badly I could be someone else or look like the celebrities I saw in magazines. I couldn’t be them though. I was stuck as myself and had to embrace it. As I grew older I got braces and had cosmetic work done on my front tooth. However, that didn’t erase the pain and insecurity I felt about myself. Every time I looked in the mirror, I still saw that goofy ten-year-old girl. I began to obsess over everything about my appearance and I never felt happy or secure. Even though my teeth were becoming straight, there was always something new to hate about myself. This caused me to think that I wasn’t worth much or that nobody really cared.
With time things became much better but these feelings of insecurity resurfaced after having a baby. Having a child is the most joyful thing I’ve ever experienced and wouldn’t trade it for anything. However, I found my body wasn’t the same as it used to be and hated all the stretch marks that cover my stomach. My husband always embraced me though and told me they were beautiful because they gave him a son and show my strength and endurance. He was right and still is. My beauty and self-worth is so much more than this. These experiences tell a story and make me who I am.
Beauty is different than our world portrays it. I see women and men who I view as stunning and realize that many of them carry these same insecurities because we live in a society that can’t be happy with who we are. Everything is a competition. Everyone feels the need to be accepted and viewed as something bigger and better.
Beauty is more than the makeup on your face, how straight your teeth are, how tan your skin is, or how many friends or followers you have on social media. It’s more than the number on the scale and certainly isn’t determined by others. Beauty is YOU. Beauty is in your uniqueness and your individuality. Beauty is made from being genuine and true. Beauty comes from those who believe in themselves. Beauty comes from confidence and smiling genuinely. Beauty is being a friend to all. Beauty is seeing the potential and good in others even when it seems contrary to what our society says.
Next time you find yourself feeling inadequate, remember your self-worth. Remember that those who tell you that you aren’t good enough certainly aren’t worth your tears or time. YOU decide your beauty because it is in the eye of the beholder. I am beautiful and so are you.